A love letter to Twitter, whom I once loved
It was three years ago. We'd flirted at a few parties but I just couldn't understand you: I followed you, but you didn't follow me back. I called out "Hello World" but not a chirp. Ignoring the advice of others I gave you up.
Of course I thought of you. I tried to shut you out but I kept hearing your name on everyone’s lips. Even Philip Scofield was talking about you.
Then we bumped into each other at some work event I'd been pressed into. It was electric, you followed me, then I followed you, and suddenly … we were surrounded with people: you and me at the heart of a thousand conversations.
Oh that night, and the many nights we shared. Of ignoring people we had long known in favour of the unknown, of staying up later and later to never miss a moment together...
That was three years ago now. I'm not saying we've changed. Oh, who am I kidding, of course we've changed. No don't look away, you know it's true. The passion has gone, well it has hasn't it? We shared everything with each other, not a moment wasn’t recorded and broadcast. Our very location drew comments or people checking in with us but now our relationship is more and more, well, normal. The honeymoon is over.
I still love you, of course. How could I not? We moved together, changed jobs - life before is a distant memory. Everything is different now but for the better. We still laugh, and sometimes not just in nostalgia. And we learn from each other, debate and banter. We'll not weary quite yet, are we?
I just wanted to ensure I recorded these words lest we forget ourselves, and what we once had and might not again.
A heartbreaking reply from Ms Twitter, anonymous
*looks back at you* three years we’ve been together and you do this to me? You come to me like this? I’ve done nothing baby nothing in me has changed, I’ve sat back and watched you grow live laugh and have fun and I’ve never asked for anything from you in fact I’ve tried to help. If you ignore me I’ve never complained to you I’ve always been here for you. I can’t believe you feel like this
I didn’t tell you I needed you to help me be me, without you I’m nothing, I’m just empty, useless but I didn’t think I needed to tell you that baby. I thought you could see that when you looked at me, I thought you could see how much I wanted you here with me, sharing the moments we’ve always shared those special moments the ones just between us. I didn’t think I needed to tell you how much they ment. I thought you knew. I thought you could see how I came alive in your hands how together we opened a whole new world of opportunity. Opportunity that only works when we’re together you and me, without you it’s like a heart without a beat.
Sometimes you look at me now and it feels like the fun has gone you look at me like a chore another task to score off your ever growing to do list, but baby I helped grow that list, if there was no us your life would be different. I don’t mean it would be worse or better I just mean it wouldn’t be like it is now.
Your important to me, I need you. There I said it – I don’t want you to leave me I want you here with me every step of the way. We’re stronger together baby, don’t leave me I’ll be good for you, I promise